the tranny authority to fabulousness: MY first Official Entry

i love life

i am a hopeless romantic and one bad date away from being cynical. i am a sucker for the written word. i love robert jordan, as much as that performance artist lady gaga or that crackwhore amy winehouse. i like reality shows and every tv show which exploits drama. I love TYRA, with her narcissism and her smize..i curse, weep and howl. i hate dumb people, and yet i think i am dumb most of the time. i am a drama queen, but i also smile the sweetest of smiles and bellow ear-shattering laughters. i frown at incompetence but screams for pleasure. i squirm when bored and squirm when tittilated. i am a connoisseur of visual and aural feasts--of all things ethereal and sublime ; ghastly and profane; a sense of aesthetics is my best friend, i like latex and pvc. i am a friend. a confidant. a lover. a mistress. a doting girlfriend. i am a creature who enjoys pigging-out on her favorite food in silence while watching crappy reality shows,then feels guilty after. i am butter melting deliciously on your tongue. i am narcissistic and extremely vain.a camera-whore who flirts with the lens on like, a regular basis. i am edward-smitten;and chris evan too.and everyday i adore a different man. i live in the present, and pop culture is my religion;i am always politically correct, but i think political correctness leads us to think like a herd, i dont think its a fault of people to think differently from mine, until we take the time to make a difference, but i take maliscious happiness in the misery of others and i religiously read perezhilton and tmz for my favorite celebrity like britney and others, and i secretly wish that lindsay will fuck it up , drink and sound the scram bracelet once more and be thrown in jail... . i am sometimes, laid back, i start and have no follow through like this blog which i have forgotten so many times. i am a person with so many gifts, and i feel like i owe it to myself to write my experiences, because i have been gifted with so much and i need to share it to the world,
.i kick myself when i fail, i hug myself when i succeed. i dare to live in waking dreams. i am a bit of a tragedy and a resounding success. i am beauty and ugliness. i love my body because its strong and i hate it because its strong. i always wish to be thinner, but i always wish to be healthier. i am a walking irony. i am dominant , but passive-aggressive. i am sane and crazy. i am happy and sad. i am shadow and light. agony and ecstasy. cold as ice. hot as fire. ..take a deep breathe
love me or hate me.
i am wholistic and i am real.
i am far from perfect.

Friday, December 7, 2007

MY first Official Entry

Ok...I think this is the third BLOG that I have tried starting..but I hope it sticks this time.

I always end up forgetting to update it or just loose interest in continuing.

Well, like Bridget Jones when she decided to start a diary to take control of her life, I am going to start this BLOG to have clarity in MINE.

I have had a very very trying couple of months...It seems that i dropped my good karma somewhere while im trying to look for my MAC Nc 42 powder from my fake Balenciaga bag! A girl got to powder her nose.

***My biggest problem when Im starting a blog is im trying to be a writer... so I decided not nto put too much effort in sounding intellectual and just really write the way I talk

Ok going back... I have had a very hard 2007. I think I have been really hard on myself..in many ways.

**I have been abusive to my body...

Too Much Vodka, Too much Hormones, Too much Sauvignon Blanc( Its New Zealand Cloudy Bay that I like), Too Much KFC( hot and spicy), Too much shoes(not that its bad, but its bad for my bank account)..etcetera. Oh and too much work.

Although I am usually an epitome of excess...I think that I overdid a lot of things...and I looked in the mirror an I think I am starting to look like one of the Golden Girls...

So now I want to have a healthier Lifestyle, thus Singapore.

So one of my resolutions for the new year is that IM GOING TO START TAKING CARE OF MYSELF ..both physically and mentally.

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I am sitting down in an outside table in starbucks today...and then suddenly I have noticed its freakin Christmas... Like Charlotte when she was ranting to her Gay stylist Friend Anthony, about Harry and having a baby...then Anthony had to point out the beautiful colors of fall... IT took me sometime to realize its just a few days before CHRISTMAS

There was chill in the air (for singapore it was a bit cold), christmas songs playing "chest nuts roasting on open fire", Lights and festive decorations everywhere in Orchard road, People walking around with big smiles on their Faces carrying Loads and Loads of shopping bags with a spring on their walks...

And there I was.. Sitting Down suddenly lost in the Magic of everything thats Happy, all my pathetic loathing suddenly insignificant...

I drank my coffee a bit more happy while reading my Gossip Mag, feeling a bit silly...