i love life


i am a hopeless romantic and one bad date away from being cynical. i am a sucker for the written word. i love robert jordan, as much as that performance artist lady gaga or that crackwhore amy winehouse. i like reality shows and every tv show which exploits drama. I love TYRA, with her narcissism and her smize..i curse, weep and howl. i hate dumb people, and yet i think i am dumb most of the time. i am a drama queen, but i also smile the sweetest of smiles and bellow ear-shattering laughters. i frown at incompetence but screams for pleasure. i squirm when bored and squirm when tittilated. i am a connoisseur of visual and aural feasts--of all things ethereal and sublime ; ghastly and profane; a sense of aesthetics is my best friend, i like latex and pvc. i am a friend. a confidant. a lover. a mistress. a doting girlfriend. i am a creature who enjoys pigging-out on her favorite food in silence while watching crappy reality shows,then feels guilty after. i am butter melting deliciously on your tongue. i am narcissistic and extremely vain.a camera-whore who flirts with the lens on like, a regular basis. i am edward-smitten;and chris evan too.and everyday i adore a different man. i live in the present, and pop culture is my religion;i am always politically correct, but i think political correctness leads us to think like a herd, i dont think its a fault of people to think differently from mine, until we take the time to make a difference, but i take maliscious happiness in the misery of others and i religiously read perezhilton and tmz for my favorite celebrity like britney and others, and i secretly wish that lindsay will fuck it up , drink and sound the scram bracelet once more and be thrown in jail... . i am sometimes, laid back, i start and have no follow through like this blog which i have forgotten so many times. i am a person with so many gifts, and i feel like i owe it to myself to write my experiences, because i have been gifted with so much and i need to share it to the world,
.i kick myself when i fail, i hug myself when i succeed. i dare to live in waking dreams. i am a bit of a tragedy and a resounding success. i am beauty and ugliness. i love my body because its strong and i hate it because its strong. i always wish to be thinner, but i always wish to be healthier. i am a walking irony. i am dominant , but passive-aggressive. i am sane and crazy. i am happy and sad. i am shadow and light. agony and ecstasy. cold as ice. hot as fire. ..take a deep breathe
love me or hate me.
i am wholistic and i am real.
i am far from perfect.



cage me up

cage me up

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Questions and ANSWERS baby

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MY Top 13 Most Beautiful Women

G L A M A Z O N





1.Marilyn Monroe
"the ultimate icon"
2.Ziyi Zhang
"the strong/delicate asian"
3.Amanda Lepore
"the ultimate transexual"
4.Dita Von Teese
"the GODDESS"
5.Natalie Portman
"effortlessly striking"
6. Monica Belucci
" the italian sensuality"
7. Christy Turlington
"the classic"
8. Carmen Kass
" the edgy Glamour"
9. Cate Blanchett
"ethereal"
10. Angelina Jolie
" fuck me face"









11. Brigitte Bardot
"the original glamazon"
12. Audrey Hepburn
"old hollywood glamour"
13. Alicia Keys
"the siren"










ANimal Conversations



Okey, i just watched this Very FUNNY video , "Santa's Baby" a christmas parody collaboration of Alex Young and the always "out there" miss jackie beats . Here is a link, I dont know if it will work..im really not used to this yet.
http://www.youtube.com/v/ZThrYCy9Zzo&rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355">..
It can give you a laugh, even in these times of excess...its nice to go overboard.

Especially after watching that Video made by PETA against the "fashion forward" Olsen Twins.... or should I say Trollsen twins...hehehe...go to Peta2.com to watch the somewhat funny but ahmmmm... gross video. Okey... not that I wear fur, but Hmmn watching the video of racoons being skinned alive in CHINA has somehow...ahmmmm made me think. Maybe a more humane way on skinning this animals. I cant believe they skin them alive!!!!!
But if I received a nice fur coat right now, I will wear it in a NY minute... Im not a celebrity so somehow I dont need to be TOO responsible...hehehe

Well, I have always been a great supporter of animal rights. As a matter of fact, I really do love animals. If I will have a charity( if Im a celebrity), it would be about animal preservation. I even considered taking ZOOlogy when I was in the University.
I have 3 cats that I pamper endlessly with toys and expensive Catfood. Yep in the Philippines, canned cat food cost more than people FOOD....

Whenever I go to other countries, the first thing I look for are zoos. And I must say that SIngapore has a very very good zoo. I even went to the NIGHT SAFARI with my BOO...that was very good. ( its my first time to see a giant anteater...and damn do they look weird)

My favorite animal are Meerkats, and I was hooked on that ANimal Planet show Meerkat Manor. So I was really sad when I found out that "Flower" the shows meerkat Leader has died defending her clan died from a snakebite. Thats really really SAD.
I also just found out that Hyenas are actually a family of Meerkats and Mongoose...isnt that weird? I thought they were DOGS. But yeah, they also have a matriarchal society and they are quite sneaky, so it somehow makes sense.


Oh and I saw the new ad of GIORGIO armani with David Beckham in tight white undies. wheew.... I need a tissue to dry my chair! LOL. I never understood what she saw with that bone of Bags POSH SPICE.

Okey, I guess Im rambling again...Nothing significant is happening in my life right now, except logging online hours after hours.

But if anyone is reading this...
I just had Calamari and Coffee in AUntie Tongs at 55 keong saik ROAD... Its extremely GOOD...and its my third time to go here... Almost all their FOOD are great. I tried this brown rice with seafood that they have...and all I can say is ...muy calliente. Relaxed ambiance, affordable and friendly staff....better try it, while its still there.


Monday, December 10, 2007

Edward Norton Worship







Is it weird that one scene in American History X I cant forget is the scene when he Got Gangbanged in prison by all those Burly White Men. Okey, maybe its sick..but at least IM HONEST hehhe...And yeah a bit fucked up
OH and the scene, when he was just wearing boxers, in the middle of the street, and the police asked him to surrender and he had this smirk on his face...damn he is just my dreamboat.

Too much of a Good THING


A beautiful Photo Taken By MY good friend.
He totally gets me.

JULIA AND ME Stomping thru Singapore





Its just another Manic Monday.
As my weekend is a bit uneventful( thats why I didnt write about it)
I am hoping for a good start this week.
I woke up determined to Make my week a bit more interesting:) and since my
bestfriend JULIA just arrived and staying at the swanky HOTEL Intercontinental. WE had good plans to wear our best swimwear and prance around the POOL looking Fierce...Unfortunately it started raining again and all the cute boys we plan on oggling at decided its better to stay in.Bummer.
I even bought a swarovski studded two piece.
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PLan B. Put clothes on. Most comfortable pair of KILler HEELS and shop!
Even the sporadic rain didnt stop us from stomping thru bugis junction.

Next stop, wheelock place. Lunch at Fish and Co., and I must say, the Food is affordable and great, since I am not a lunch person, Julia finished most of it .hehehe. BUt the mushroom soup was perfect for a rainy day, I just wished they gave us bread....
Oh and I cant stop flirting with the Cute waiter...So Carrie Bradshaw.( re: when carrie got pregnant with the guy who works in the saloon)
And although we are soooo psyched to shop... The rain didnt seem to give us a chance to really enjoy it....

Mid afternoon. We headed home...separate hotels.

Now, here I am ...writing my BLOG, eating room service( spring chicken and fries again)....wearing only my new Black 4 inch George Marciano shiny killer PUMPS

Saturday, December 8, 2007

This is ADDICTIVE, I love Posting


I found some OLD PHOTOS browsing thru My memorycard...Wow now I know I gained weight. I was denying it for a bit...
But now I know I did.
Thats the first step to getting healthy. To be able to realize and accept that yeah...my favorite pair of jeans is a smidgen tighter...and I wont rely on MY BF to say if I got Fat or not as they give you the safest answer...

"Honey, did I gain weight since last time?"
"NO"
"Thats quick...your just saying that"
"of course not, you look great"

Note to self: the fact I ask ..means I am feeling a bit more pudgy from TOO much OILY food, alcohol or HORMONAL mood swings.

Another note to self: Dont BUY a bag of RUFFLES and finish it at one GO while watching TV.

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I didnt eat dinner. So that Counts as dinner..hehehe
But I just ate half a spring chicken...and french fries

Cure: two Xenical PILLS
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In my quest to get healthier and tigther...

**I will work out again. I bought a nice pair of workout outfit from NIKE to inspire me again.
**I will count my calories and try to eat more green.
**I will stop deluding myself that diet pills really help me loose weight and the only way that I will is if I work out and eat healthier.
**Stay away from KFC and any fast food, bag of chips, and anything SWEET.
**Stop drinking alcohol..Not entirely but EMPTY CALORIES should be avoided.
** Post a picture of Dita VON TEESE on my walls to inspire me to get a 22 inch waist.

This also GOES TO MY Friend Miss D. Miss D...Stay away from the chocolates, rice and CRISPY PATA!

Amy Winehouse MOM says NO NO NO









Browsing thru Perezhilton Today...(yes I am a big fan of the VICIOUS miss perez) and ran accross the OPEN letter that Amy Winehouse's MOMMA published as one of her valliant efforts to get thru to her daughter.



Its so caring , touching, and HEART WRENCHING. You can just tell how much she loves the troubled singer...



Here is an excerpt:



"Early fame has overwhelmed you, it’s dizzied you and muddled your mind. For a moment, forget you’re a superstar. You’re also young and vulnerable. Remember you’re just an ordinary human being, no stronger than any of the rest of us. You think you’re strong enough to get through this on your own, darling, but you’re not. "



And its the truth...



I think its NOT only Amy who should be reading this, There are a lot of misguided young people out there...(Aheemm..Britney, Lindsay and the rest of the Hollywood IT group)



Okey, I should be reading this too. There was a point in my life(recently) when I know Im at the top of my Game. Money is rollin, Guys are dime a dozen, endless parties, tight BOD, beautiful clothes and "friends" that reflects your ILLUSION of being Invulnerable.






BUT damn it.... Its a slippery slope.



Im a big fan of AMY. She is a true Artist. Her Voice is sultry and very Unique...Almost like a homage to the Legendary Jazz singers before her. I have her whole album on her IPOD. I love her rendition of Will You Still LOve Me Tomorrow for Bridget Jones Diary.





I really hope she can get sober and continue singing...And I hope she doesnt get back with the hanger on husband the she has...Blake Fielder CIVIL.... Because I think He is a bit of a LOST cause.


Lets not have another Kurt Cobain shall we? Because I know that if she goes full throttle on hard drugs... That little BOdy wreaked with Bulimia and years of abuse is going to waste away FAST.


And I hope all these young celebs take a cue from the enigmatic and extremely smart Natalie Portman. You can be young, Hella fuckin RICH. Famous..but you dont have to snort COCAINE all the way thru...



(Natalie has just been featured as In Styles most stylish star, and all her colleagues has only nothing but RAVES to say about her...)_

Me too.




How the fuck did it Become 7pm?




I Think the whole day has been a bit of a blur.
Almost 5 hours has passed and I think its such a waste. I feel as if I should be busy doing something...instead of walking around orchard road window shopping.
Well, I think Im just a bit depressed because I dont have a lot of shopping money lately...and all the christmas sales is making me depressed not being able to purchase.
And I just read US weekly, and almost every star and D list celebrity has a charity. . ,. Well, at least I put money for UNESCO in those little envelopes they hand out in the plane. Makes me feel like Angelina...now if only I could find a BRAD..heheheeh


I saw this really funky small bag at GUESS...and its 30 percent off. It could have been perfect for skinny jeans and rock and roll shirt combo...but damn it..I have to walk away....
Reminding myself..Priorities! Priorities! Priorities.
Its such a shame though..Ive been burning a hole in my pocket last time I was in Singapore when everything is regular price, and now it annoys me that everything is about 50 dollar less... HMMN all in all I could have saved at least 500 dollar.
Thats almost a JIMMY CHOO!
I can not even let myself go in BEBE and they are on sale..I know I would IMPULSE BUY again... BTW kudos to BEBE for making clothes for Voluptous women.
I found this perfect dress that makes me feel like Jessica Rabbit..HUgs in all the right places.


It was hot and humid because it RAINED. But it didnt seem to dampen people's mood to shop. Orchard Road was milling with people hellbent on spending their MONEY.
I cant believe there is a line outside GUCCI in Paragon! Are Singaporeans that rich? And there's even a longer line in Louis Vuitton..and there's no sale! I wish there would be someone out there who would think of giving me a Vuitton as holiday present. Hint Hint Hint





I Contented myself browsing thru GAP....and Damn was it PLAIN...I dont want to look like a farmer ...so I just walked on...
I went to Metro to LOOK for good finds...and the only thing I found are raunchy skivvies that dont have my size, and a realization that Heidi KLUm would put his name on anything like Jessica Simpson..because she is the official model of Accessorize...or maybe thats just a promotion for her ahmm... affordable accesories...but isnt she rich already...?
Then I met my school friend MR J working here in Singapore.... He introduced me to his new BF..but cant stay LONG because they have to go to the GYM and watch Golden Compass after. How Gay of them. hehehe
Before I knew it I found myself eating street food waiting for a cab...
I didnt even line up going in to Gucci..I lined up for Cab going home...eating street food in my ..best Mary Kate BOHO chic look... How sad. I didnt even pretend to eat salad at some yuppie deli to do something for my image.hehehe
And somehow one of my friend found out about this BLOG.... At least he found it FUNNY...tap tap on my shoulder. I should definitely have invited him for coffee.
OH...and I looked at my watch and its seven PM...Damn it. how did that Happen?

If You CouLd Read My Mind Love

If You CouLd Read My Mind Love
What a tale my thoughts would tello